Tuesday, 9 August 2011
I am really struggling with breastfeeding. It has never come easy to Mia and i. She didnt nurse atall for the first two days of her life. She just couldn't latch and i couldnt get anything out when expressing. She was just so weak and floppy and slept for 2 days straight. The first night she was born, she actually slept through all night from 10pm until 8am with no wakeups for milk. She just starved for 48 hours and it was the most agonising moment! I just felt like i was failing her.
On day 6, i went in tears to a breastfeeding support group and started using nipple shields which worked perfectly! She finally nursed and it was the most amazing feeling! But because she nursed with the sheilds, her feeds were sloooooow! lasting around 2 hours a feed, leaving me around a 15 minute break before she needed nursing again. With a toddler running around, acting out as she wanted attention, this became really hard. People kept telling me to stop and just formula feed her but i just didnt want to. I perservered and one day she fed and then went 3 hours before her next feed! i was so amazed!
We continued fine and she was having a 4 hour stretch between an hours feed and was sleeping through the night. I thought we had cracked it and felt so relieved!
We then, one day, managed to feed without the shields, she just latched on as we were having skin to skin cuddles one afternoon. i was even more estatic that we were nursing normally and with no problems.
After a few weeks, i started to have problems with my milk supply. She was feeding for an hour then wasnt satisfied. She would pull off me and cry and in the end i just had to top her up with a bottle of formula. I knew there was something wrong.
How can a baby nurse for an hour and then take a full 7oz bottle of forumla straight afterwards!
Her weight shot up. I was double feeding her. I knew we couldnt go on like this. i started trying her with just the bottle first and she was quite satisfied afterwards and would go 4 hours in between feeds. I then tried it the other way around and again, she would take a full hour feed from both sides of me and then have to be topped up!
So here we are. She is having more bottles than breast at the moment and i just dont know which way to go. She isnt getting what she needs from me and if i didnt give her the bottle, i just know she would end up malnourished and not satisfied.
What do i do? I just love breastfeeding. Our nursing story has been a long journey. I have fed her for nearly 5 months and now it is getting close to weaning time. She had a tiny bit of apple just now and has fallen straight asleep. Her last milk feed was 4 hours ago so as you can see, she is quite satisfied on the formula but it really upsets me that i just cant make her satisfied with my milk!
Help Help Help!
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