Thursday, 24 July 2014

A growing love











Wednesday was Elle's last day at school. I knew that i would be feeling a little lost and down and so i asked my brother the week before if he would come over wednesday evening and sit with the girls whilst Gilles and i went out together. I didn't want to go out on a dinner date, i just wanted to go for a nice walk in the sun. Just us (and the dog!).

For years and years, i struggled with intense guilt of leaving the girls with people. I loved the idea initially, but when it came to it, i felt so anxious and would work myself up about it. Looking after them was MY job, so why was i being selfish and leaving them with other people. It took me a long time, and a good talking to by my doctor, to realise that i need time for myself. I need to ask for help more so i don't burn myself out and become even more exhausted. Spending time alone is ok but getting to spend time with one of my most favourite people in the whole world wide is even better! Sunday, we left the girls with Gilles's parents and went on a trip to ikea. I looked forward to it for days and days and couldn't stop telling him how excited i was. I danced our little hearts out in the car and rolled the windows down to catch the breeze without little people saying they were cold, or needed a wee or wanted a drink.Sometimes, i just want to be carefree and be in that moment with my husband without having to think or answer to anything or anyone else.

Wednesday was one of those perfect evenings. We drove to one of my favourite villages and walked along the canal into the next village. We saw rabbits and damsel flies and stood for about 10 minutes infront of a heron statue, trying to work out if it was real or not to figure out it wasn't and the people in their boats must have been having a right laugh at us! I photographed baby ducklings, starlings, the sun light on the water and found wonderful new fields to go for adventures in with the girls. There was the most sweetest canal boat that was selling potted and hanging plants from the side of it and on the path. We are going to go back and buy some very soon.

We have been married for 7 years now and i still get flutters when he kisses me. It is those surprise kisses when you are busy doing something and they grab you and pull you close. I love Gilles more now than i did when we got married. The love keeps growing with every adventure and experience we have together. I love talking with him about growing old. I just know we will be one of those old couples that still holds hands where ever we go!
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  1. Oh that's so lovely; and what a beautiful evening. I know what you mean about finding it hard to leave the girls; I have a wonderful time when I do, but gathering up the courage to actually organise it is another matter!

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  2. This is such a sweet post lovely, and the love you have for your husband and girl's is so clear to see. x

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  3. What a lovely post and it looks and sounds such a beautiful place to explore. A canal boat selling plants is just my kind of thing!

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  4. This brought me a smile! It is so very important that you continue to nurture the love you share with your husband. Children who have parents that remain is love tend to be happiest and statistically, end up with fulfilling relationships and marriages when they grow up. I bet the time apart from them left you feeling recharged and with your little fairies excited to see mum and daddy!

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  5. Aww - it's lovely to find your soulmate and what beautiful surroundings to walk in x

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  6. Lovely post, couple time is so important, we managed a night away a couple of weeks ago, and it was lovely to be two people in love not Mummy and Daddy for a short spell, though I did miss my kids! I too had that perfect in the car moment - music loud, windows down, no interruptions from the back seat!

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  7. A beautiful love story. As usual your pictures are stunning and dreamy. Looks as if you live in a beautiful part of the world.

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  8. Beautiful words hun, I can just feel how much your family means to you xx

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  9. So lovely to get to spend some time as a couple, it's nice to be able to re-connect and remember why it is you love each other.

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  10. What a wonderful post!! How lovely! My hubby and I don't have enough "us" time!! :(

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  11. That evening light is just perfect, and I'm glad you got some alone time with your mister x

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  12. Beautiful picture and beautiful post. You sound completely in love and hapy.

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  13. Oh you loved up thing - this is lovely to read x

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  14. Lovely post. I am so happy for your both guys.
    True love isn't happening to everyone!
    Take care of it.

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  15. Feel exactly the same here Keri-Anne x

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  16. What a lovely post. I'm glad you got to spend some quality time together in a beautiful setting.

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  17. What a really lovely post. I'm so pleased you and your husband had a nice time together :)

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  18. What a great post. You sound perfect together :)

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  19. Lovely post, isn't it lovely to get some alone time

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  20. Wow! i've been in love with your web site since i found this :)

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