Sunday, 15 March 2015
Siblings in March
These two sisters can be the most precious things in the world but there are some days where the questions don't stop and the wingeing doesn't fade and they just seem to want to poke each other and Mia ends up screaming and Elle ends up crying. On those days, i cannot wait for bedtime but an hour after they have both fallen asleep, i wish for them to wake up and i miss them. It is always those days that i then sit for hours in the evenings and miss them. I feel the guilt of wanting them to go to bed and for losing my patient with them. The guilt of hiding up in my room to just have a little peace and the guilt for rushing through story time and bedtime so i can say goodnight and crash on the sofa with a big sigh of relief.
This evening has been one of those moments. One was over tired and the other hasn't really gotten over being ill this week so had a melt down because her tummy hurt. I rushed through bedtime. I didn't mean to but i was tired and wanted to just sit down on my own in the quiet and reflect on the day and now i am missing them. When i miss them, i always put on a song called Light tower for my moon flower by Elle Graham. It is the song that reminds me of them and they always ask for it in the car as they know it is the song that their Mama loves that reminds me of them. It is everything that i want for them and everything i wish i could do for them.
"I found a star and i put it in the night sky so i could show it to you. In the night it would flicker yea your eyes catch a glimmer of the lighthouse i made for you"
I just cannot ever ever be mad at these two for long. They are so good really and when i feel cross and impatient at them, it always fades so quickly and i am left with a rush of love. It is like they know and they know how they touch my heart. They really are an amazing pair and as soon as i save this post, i am going to scoop up Elle and bring her into my bed with me. Mia will wake at around 3:30am, as she usually does, and sneaks in beside me and i cannot wait to open my eyes on mothers day morning to both of my girls snuggled up with me in bed.
"Siblings" is a monthly link up where myself and 6 other bloggers all share a photo of their children and then we each send you off to look at another blog. You can then go around in a circle, viewing all of the wonderful photographs and then why not link up yourself if you have two children or more! This month, i am sending you over to Carie at Space for the butterflies. She has two sweet little ladies also and a Prince to add into the mix. Her blog is filled with beautiful photographs of her three little ones.
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