Mia starts school in September. It is going to be a huge change for all of us .It has stirred up a lot of emotions in me but also a lot of uncertainty. What am i going to do with myself? Who am i going to look after?
When that day comes that i put Mia into her first ever school uniform and take her into the school gates as a school girl and not to just to pick up her sister i just know my heart will be breaking. I am going to be going through those school gates with two and come out with none! I am then going to come home and it is just going to be me. So, there is that question. What am i going to do and and the question i have been thinking about alot recently is who am i? I have spoken to my husband a lot about this question. I really have two options. Get a job or follow my passions. That is photography and my blog. Spending my day being creative. Playing around with styling and flowers and crafting and baking. Putting all my efforts and working hard to try and make something of myself and this little space of mine.
I have been writing down so many ideas on where i can go and how i can get there. It is very confusing and scary and at the moment, i am a tiny bit lost because i know where i want to go but getting there is hard. It will be a slow process but i cannot let years go by and say that i never tried. Over the last few weeks, i have been playing around with styling. Mostly with flowers. I love creative product photography and on those days where i feel i need to be inspired, i like to pick some flowers and create beautiful photographs for myself. These above are all iphone pictures that i have just styled and snapped quickly. I usually then leave the flowers in bottles and vases and just scatter them around my house. Blossom and Lilacs are my favourite and my house smells pretty wonderful right now!
I am trying to create opportunities for myself and to grab those that come my way with all the passion and enthusiasm that i can. I feel that i have something unique to offer. I feel that my photography is unique and creative and that i have something different to offer. Well at least i hope so. There are so many people just like me out there with the same dreams and the same passion and wishing and finger crossing that something might happen that will be great. Right now, i feel like a huge tiny fish in a very big ocean but i am going to do my best to make something of myself. To be different and to make something great happen.